Silence 🤫

Hey little child,

I shared my feelings and I received silent treatment.

I learnt if I share my feelings I receive no love.

What gets me love? 

I asked myself? 

What is the currency? 

I do what you want me to and you will love me.

I keep quiet and you will love me. 

I nod to what to say you will love me. 

Yet, I felt unheard. 

Who will hear the whispers of my heart?

Who will hear my uniqueness? 

Who will love me for who I am? 

Who would celebrate me? 

If I do what you want me to. You will love me. 

I collect all the feelings inside.

Eat through my feelings - brownies are great. 

You eat too much, eat healthy. 

Hey brownies don't ask me to shut up. 

Drink through our feelings 

Wine is great. You drink too much. 

Alcohol is not good for you. 

Oops I did the wrong thing again. I feel worse about myself. 

I can't stop drinking. 

Smoke through the feelings

You smoke too much. 

Here we are the deaf listening to the deaf. 

All deaf and feeling unheard. 

Who will listen? 

Who will speak? 

I was told my words don't matter. 

I must speak when you ask me to 

I must speak what you want me to 

I must speak the amount you want me to

I am silent 

The silence where I supress 

So I can impress. 

All those words, thoughts, feelings unheard. 

Rotting inside me or sitting under the carpet.

Who would hear? 

Do you have a ear? 

All I needed was to know I was and I am worthy of love. 

My words mattered.